The warmth of the electric buzz
gentle flow moving into my eyes from behind a smiling face of a
smiling sturdy man
the man standing before me
The warm light energy flowing down my body
down my spine into my legs
energizing and waking my bones within
the surge of blood up and down my system
bringing an inhale
a delightful jump of a smile to my own lips
the yellow warm light behind him
creating a halo
And a blush - a rush - a warmth up in my cheeks!
It’s an opening
the energy I’m feeling
I want to rush in
I want to jump in and also I want to jump away
it’s so much.
My skin is sensitive electric around him
his welcoming so bright - the blood in my cheeks so hot
I can feel every part of me alive
in this breath
caught in between my lungs and my heart - I’m alive and I’m here now
I wasn’t here before but I got myself here and he’s here now
and he tells me to come in and I want to and I will
but for this moment I’m still
still me, still just outside, still just wanting to
Jump in jumpy and jumping and the chance
My hands open, eyes open, feet planted, smiling, okay!
Okay, I’ll come in and that means stepping towards him
closer to him, moving towards the light
towards the opening he’s created in his home for me
He only opened a door but does he know what it means for me to be let in like this?
I’m going to step inside hour house now, good sir
and it’s warm in here
I can see how I could see so much light and warmth
spilling out from within
your house is warm and light but it’s not the house
it’s you, you make it warm and light and now I’m light
I’m floating through your warm light space
my feet are moving me but I don’t see them
my head held high
I’m comfortable here
like swimming in warm waters
or a bath
could I have been reborn
just then when you let me in?
Sarah Elovich is a writer and performer based in Oakland, CA.